This is a book I am currently reading that was recommended by one of my instructors, and I have realized there is so much behind people who have a problem with food, especially at a young age. This is the autobiography of a child actress, best known for her work in Scarily, in which she recounts her life and her childhood and career. She expresses how she really never wanted to be an actress it was her moms dream and she had such a crippling fear of not being enough for her mom since her mom made herself her best friend and was an extremely ill woman in more ways than one and had a dependency to her children and lived in fear swell as through manipulation to her children that she had been sick and it was gods miracle that she was alive. Her mother did not care what her child wanted, since her child always went along with whatever her mother wanted to make her happy, and just went along without being truthful to herself. She always felt a fear that she would be a disappointment to her mother and a fear of not making her happy, I believe, because her mother did not have the self-esteem to be herself and put everything onto her children and wanted to live life through them; however, this created a pattern of abuse. Her mother started to use food as a bargaining tool so if she did well in an acting audition she would tell her daughter they could go get ice cream but if this did not happen then this would not be a possibility, she also gave her child dangerous sports drinks for a child her age to get her to preform in the way it was asked such as sugar free Red Bulls to make sure she had energy. Her mother also was always tampering her appearance in order to try to make her natural beauty perfect which ment they would go through maintenance trip and as Net was a child she Never understood why her natural beauty was not good enough at it always had to be enhanced which from experiences I have heard from other people it is something that is very common in a lot of cultures and parents are always trying to make their children as perfect as possible instead of letting them be as they are naturally. Even though some people would be concerned with some of Nets behavior and say that she might have OCD her mother could not tolerate her child being anything other than perfect which lead to a lot of issues because some times as parents you have to realize your children imperfections and let them be or get them the help they need such as Net might have needed a therapist but because of her mothers fears it was something that was taken away or an opportunity she was not given.
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